What started out as a way for me to deal with the loss of my mother, has transformed into something more. I enjoy using my imagination to create stories, to create characters that people enjoy. I love doing it.
I've learned a lot these past few years. A lot about myself, my strengths, my weaknesses. Who knew that I could finish a novel, let alone three. Plus I'm halfway through a fourth and a fifth one is stirring in my head. It takes a lot of determination and time to do this. And I'm not anywhere close to being finished. Friends know how many revisions I have done, how much work I've put into editing. There are times I feel like my stories will never be "perfect" enough. But I am determined to get these stories ready to submit to agents/publishers. I have to. I owe it to myself to at least try. So, my goal is to get my first book in my Darkness Comes Series ready for submission. I hope to have this done sometime this year.
People always tell me they can't believe I've written a book, saying that they could never do it. I never thought I could do it. But I did. But it isn't easy or for the faint of heart. I can't tell you the stress it can put on you, the fear it can strike into your being. Even letting early readers read and review my stories makes my stomach twist in knots. You fear rejection, someone's laughter at something you've worked so hard on, or just straight up disappointment in the story. But so far everything has been postive. Perhaps my favorite to hear is "I can't wait to find out what happens next." This keeps me going. Eager to please and to share the stories that have dwelled in my head.
So heres a quick review of my projects and where I am with them.
After Sarah loses her husband, she is drawn by a series of visions that lead her to discover something dark about her past. Along the way she is torn by her feelings for a new love, against her overwhelming bond with something much more sinister.
Sarah saves the man she loves from certain death, only to find that he is not the same man she fell in love with. She soon discovers that the only way to save him, is to kill him.
Sarah's premonitions haunt her, but when she tries to alter them to save the ones she loves, she discovers that some things aren't meant to change.
This series is what I've been working on these past four years. I have other stories in my head, ready to find their way onto paper. I'm beginning to feel like I could just continue to write and never stop long enough to truly get these out there. Because creating the story is my favorite part. The true work begins with revisions and edits.
So here I am, working when I have the time to do it. It is taking me longer and longer to finish things. Time is hard to come by. But I'm hoping that I can push through my fears and get something out there.
I owe it to myself, my family, and everyone whose supported me through it all. :)