Sunday, April 3, 2011

Rereading A First Manuscript is Dangerous Business

I sat down, deciding for the first time in a while to reread a manuscript that I hoped would be ready for sending, only to find that I already want to rewrite it after the first chapter.  This poor manuscript has been revisioned to death and still after two years I find stuff wrong with it.  Not terrible things, but I can tell a distinct difference between this very first story and the ones I've recently written.  (My writing is just better.)

So, I am struck with another problem.  This is a first book in a series of four.  Yes, the other books can be read as stand alone books, but I feel like this first one is important to the series.  So, do I take the time and do a severe revision or do I leave it alone?

My brother would say, don't touch it.  It's nice to see the writers progression.  But then again, how can I send a MS that I don't feel is ready?  UGGG!  Problem.

On a more positive note, at least I can see that my writing is improving.  I am in no way stating that it is fantastic, but it is just better.  That is one good thing to see, but leaving it this way causes me a lot of unease.  But reworking an entire MS is also dreadfully difficult.  My stomach curls in knots just thinking about it.

So, I remain stuck.  Do I move on, forget the original MS, and continue on with my writing?  Or do I take the time and make this book better? 

I hate making decisions like this.  Makes my head hurt.